Location: Tigereye Peak
Born 3 years, 17 days ago
Species: Fragmented Heart
Color: Shattered Glass Inkmid
Costume: Classic CartoonBuffs:
House: Tigereye Peak House (1/250)
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FH looks stunning!
FH's very special treasures!
My self-representation villager.
Since this Villager is me inserting myself into the world of Furvilla, you'll find that it's going to semi-permanently appear as the active villager for my account. If it's not the active villager, I'm either replying to a comment in-character as another villager, or one of my active workers is sick and they're being taken to the clinic for free healing.
!! ALL COMMENTS FROM THIS VILLAGER ARE SPOKEN FROM THE POV OF THE PERSON BEHIND THE COMPUTER SCREEN. !!
Painties by: MoonNue [FV] | odjn [dA] | Mitzbehaven [TH] | xminxicat [TH] | Kiwiggle [FV]
This villager doubles as a villager for both my persona and my IRL self. Because of this, the bio is going to be split into two sections. The first covers the details of the persona, the latter will be the details about yours truly. I can't guarantee a quality description of either, and I have no idea how long or short the sections will be.
Explorer | Cook | Part-Time Minipet Breeder
Just as I’m terrible at talking about myself, I’m also really terrible at describing my persona. But I’ll try my best to lay this out in a coherent manner.
My self-representation wasn’t always this abstract or bizarre looking. Initially, my self-representation was pretty basic; I’ve had human representations, furry representations, but none of them were things I ever truly felt connected to. They were designs I liked, but they were designs that had no real meaning or association with myself beyond “Oh, that looks cool.” Which, I think, is what really sets this persona apart. Rather than just formulating a design and trying to flesh it out or make it relatable afterwards, this persona evolved over time and was shaped by various aspects of my life. My likes, dislikes, even my experiences throughout the years of my life have all contributed to the final design of my persona. Even the multiple forms it takes on are based on aspects of my life and my being. As well, with past self-representations, they were always characters that “represented” me but weren’t ACTUALLY me. This persona differs in that aspect, as well, because while there are times it’s a separate existence from my own, there are also times when we are fused together into one being.
To be blunt, for lack of a better term, I’m currently calling my persona a “Fragmented Heart.” Yes, there’s a reason for that name just like there’s a reason for the overall appearance. But, as I am still working out the fine details, I won’t really elaborate on that just yet. The biology that makes up my persona is tricky, and because of certain traits, my persona does not have a biological sex or perception of gender. In both forms, my persona is referred to as an “it” because that’s what it reacts favourably to. There are moments when it responds well to masculine pronouns, but it gets vicious when referred to with feminine pronouns.
[The basic Biology]
My persona is not a fully physical being. Despite its humanoid appearance in both forms, there really isn’t anything human about it outside of the clothing and accessories it chooses to wear. The true “body” consists of a core object cloaked by a swirling black mass that looks like a mix between fluid ink and dense fog. The persona gets its name, Fragmented Heart, from that core. As you can probably imagine based on the name, the core is a shattered, broken object whose pieces are contained within the swirling black mass. However, the mass alone is not enough to keep the pieces together, and as the pieces drift further and further apart, the Fragmented Heart will slowly weaken and die. Because of this, clothing or some kind of containing garment is necessary to keep the pieces in close enough proximity to sustain the Fragmented Heart’s life.
The inky body substance is good at mimicking the structure and rigidness of human anatomy, but depending on the Fragmented Heart’s mood, it’s possible that the body will lose the rigidness and become more spaghetti-limbed or take on a more abnormal appearance. Additionally, though the inky substance usually remains hidden within the clothing, there are times when it can splash out or manifest outside of the clothing.
The only true physical objects my persona consists of are the clothing and accessories it wears. Namely, the hoodie, jeans, shoes, and headphones. Anything else is either a holographic projection generated by the core, or a temporary physical shape created by the inky body substance. In my persona’s first form, the TV head is created by the inky substance. In its second form, the eye is a holograph generated by the core. Because the core is broken, the eye cannot consistently stay visible and has moments of glitching, warping, or fading out of visibility. The claws, wings, and tail in the second form are examples of the inky substance manifesting itself outside of the clothing.
When feeling angry or hostile, both forms of my persona have different ways of showing it. In its first form, the TV can break apart or partially disintegrate, with the inky body substance welling up inside and cascading out over the broken glass and casing. The inky substance can reform itself from here for the purpose of attacking, favoured forms being dozens of sharp shards or needles, or multiple hands/arms to grab and tear apart. In the second form, the blade-like claws can change their length and curvature, and are used for slashing, tearing, or scooping. The TV-Head’s aggressive manifestations (needles and hands) are weaker and easier to avoid because they take time to form, unlike the instantaneous manifestation of the second form’s claws. One swing of those claws can rip you in half before you even know what’s happening.
Due to the lack of a physical body or vital organs, my persona cannot speak in a natural manner. Instead, both of its forms have their own means of communication and mood expressions. The TV-head communicates through the TV screen and static, the second form emotes using the eye graphic visible between the ear pieces of the headphones.
Being both a self-representation as well as a separate entity, my persona does not share my personality and likes/dislikes 100%. Even the two forms it takes on have their own unique likes and dislikes that differ from the other. We all like some of the same things, we all hate some of the same things, and either of the forms may like or dislike things separate from myself or the other form. Each form also has a different personality from the other.
To save time and space, I’m going to refrain from typing out each form’s individual personality, likes, and dislikes. That said, if you’re actually curious or interested in learning more, feel free to drop me a PM.
[Here on Furvilla]
The Fragmented Heart has taken up the position of Cook for the troupe of villagers under its watchful gaze, as well as a side interest in breeding minipets every week. It favors simple recipes like soup due to quick cooking time, but if it's not feeling lazy and ingredients are available, it might put forth the effort to make something fancier. Though it can eat its own food, it can't exactly taste anything so it relies on the others to determine whether or not the food tastes good. Luckily, the general feedback has been positive.
"But if it doesn't have a mouth, how does it eat?" you ask. According to one witness, the Fragmented Heart was seen dumping a bowl of freshly made soup and a Baked Furlaska into the neck of its hoodie, wherein the food disappeared and was never seen again.
Don't let it near your Phoenix Fire Hot Wings.
It will eat them all while staring you square in the eye.
It will show no remorse.
[ About Moi ]
Well, if you've read this far, then chances are you're looking to learn more about the individual who runs this account. Be warned, I don't really like talking about myself in great detail, so this might not give you the information you're looking for.
First thing for you to know about me, I guess, is that I am a schediaphile. Some of you won't be familiar with the term, it's the predecessor of "fictophile" or "fictosexual." It's a term to describe someone who has a primary and exclusive attraction to 2D characters. In my case, there are two characters specifically: Art from the Hamatora anime series, and Bill Cipher from the Gravity Falls cartoon series. As seen on my main profile page, both are husbando and I ship myself with both in a poly relationship as well as separately for their respective series AUs. We have an adopted son whom I'm currently working on developing the backstory and such for.
I've gone by many names online, as my username tends to change based on my interests. Currently, I go by Mindscape as a username, or Andy if we're going on a real name basis. My old username was "artswaifu" and I do still go by this rarely, but I am slowly moving away from that name as the "waifu" part is no longer comfortable for me to use for obvious reasons.
I have professionally diagnosed General Anxiety Disorder and Social Phobia, and while I try my best to be social, sometimes I just really need my space for the sake of my nerves. I try hard to keep my feelings bottled up and not trouble other people, but sometimes I can't avoid a breakdown. When that happens, I'm really just wanting to be left alone. So if you approach me and I don't respond, or I say I don't really want to talk right now, that's why. I can 101% guarantee you it's nothing personal, and you didn't do anything wrong, it's just that I tend to lash out when I'm in a bad state and I don't want to hurt anyone. So just give me some space, and I'll come around when I'm ready.
I don't really like putting labels on myself outside of my schediaphile label. I'm a human being with his own values, morals, judgements, and feelings when it comes to people. An individual's actions are exclusive to them alone. Not their skin colour, not their race, not their gender. If you lash out at an entire group of people because of one shithead, you're no better than they are.
I believe in treating people the way I want to be treated, but I am also a believer in "an eye for an eye." If people treat me badly, they will get the same treatment in return.
Fun facts about me:
• I'm ambidextrous, though I am strictly a southpaw for writing and drawing.
• I'll listen to any kind of music except Country.
• I have several medals from clubs and activities I've been a part of.
• I'm good with both Windows and Mac computers.
• I'm certified in Graphic Design and 3D Animation/Video Game Design.
• My favourite colour is silver.
• People often assume I'm a dragon in the Eastern Zodiac, but I'm actually a rabbit.
• I stand at 5'5 and people use me for an armrest.
• I'm a world traveller in the making.
• I can taste the difference between Coca Cola and Pepsi Cola.
• I adore penguins.
I'm neither a pessimist nor an optimist; I generally tend to look at a situation and predict outcomes that are both positive and negative to prepare for anything. However, at any given moment my words and actions may be more positive or more negative depending on my mood and other circumstances. I do my best to keep a level head and be a calm person but I do have a quick temper that can sometimes escalate out of control. My condolences if you end up on the receiving end of my temper because it is not pretty.
I'm willing to try almost anything once, and I'm somewhat of a thrill-seeker. I love amusement parks with fast and/or high rides.
[Things I like, and things I'm not so fond of]
[Onto more serious matters…]
I'm not a well-liked person on this site. At the time of typing this, there are 31 people who have me blocked (28 of which I've never even spoken to), and the list grows longer every day. Additionally, if you're seen socialising or being friendly with me, those people might also come to block you too so be prepared for that.
That said, I know why I'm not well liked on this site. Part of it has already been mentioned above, and part of it is what you're about to read (if you're still with me at this point). It's regrettable, but there's also nothing I can do about it.
I'm not a person who goes out of their way to be friendly to people just for the sake of it. As previously mentioned, I can be civil; If you're nice to me I'll return the kindness. If you're an asshole, expect me to be the same. I'm here for the pets and the villages, not the community. I'm done with trying to change myself just to please people. If people can't like me for who I am, without asking me to change myself, then they're not worth getting to know. If I manage to make friends, great. If I make enemies, I couldn't care less.
If you ask for my opinion on something, you need to be prepared for the reality that you might not like what I say to you. I tell things how I see them; I've been told I'm a bit too blunt at times but that's because I don't see a point in sugar coating anything. If you put your work out for other people to look at, you need to be prepared to accept criticism and negative opinions. You don't get a gold star just because you tried. Not everyone is a winner. That's the reality of life.
Another thing that makes me unpopular is that I am not a person who will coddle and shelter other people to avoid hurting their feelings. Feelings getting hurt are a very natural part of life. It's how we learn and grow as human beings. Encountering differing opinions, things we hate or detest, or things we are uncomfortable with is also a natural part of life, and people need to learn that running away isn't the answer. The sooner you stop running and hiding, the better it will be for your own health and wellbeing.
Safe spaces don't really exist. They never have, they never will. There will be instances in life where the block feature doesn't exist or can't be used. There will be instances where you can't just walk away or close yourself off. Get used to it. I fully encourage people to step out of their comfort zones and expose themselves to things they dislike. Exposure for the sake of building tolerance is a wonderful thing.
Yet another thing that makes me unpopular is that I'm transgender. Transmale, working on transitioning after years of struggling to get the help and recognition I needed to start down this path. I do not support "transtrenders" or people who call themselves "non-dysphoric trans." I've been getting professional medical help in regards to my transgenderism, and so far, every professional has said that yes, dysphoria IS required to be transgender. And yes, I believe/trust that. If you do not experience dysphoria, you are not transgender. If you do not experience body/gender dysphoria, you really have no reason to CALL yourself transgender.
Being transgender is not fun, cute, or trendy. Being transgender isn't a "choice" you can just up and make because you "feel like it." Transgender is also not a "catch-all" term for anything other than cisgender. That's not how this shit works.
People who call themselves "non-dysphoric" transgender and act like being trans is cute, fun, and trendy honestly make me want to die because they make it hard for people like us to get the help and recognition we need, due to making it look like a fucking joke. You're not helping trans people when you act like this. You're not helping trans people when you call us "internalised transphobes" because we won't let you play around with our label. You're not helping trans people when you talk over us or try to silence us because what we're saying isn't what you want to hear. You're not helping trans people when you demonise and harass our cisgendered friends, family, and allies or call them scum.
Being transgender is not a fun, cute, or trendy experience. It's fucking miserable and this misery isn't something I'd wish on anyone else, not even my worst enemies.
The final thing, the thing I think is what really makes me unpopular with the userbase on this site, is the fact that I am personally incapable of validating or using made-up genders, which are something you see often on this site.
The pronouns I CAN use for people are as follows:
Additionally, while I am okay with the concept of animal-based otherkin and have several friends who identify as such, I absolutely do not (and will not ever) support the concept of fictionkin or factkin, as coping mechanisms or otherwise, because they are highly unhealthy and damaging not to mention just plain disrespectful and outright creepy as hell. Mega squick.
Fullbody artwork: Mitzbehaven @ toyhou.se | Base Profile CSS: Cro | FH Bookmark: Darci @ deviantArt
✮ if you find me wandering, please return me to myself (29913). ✮