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A TL;DR for the content below: I'm Lur, I'm an adult, I'm non-human, I suffer from chronic pain, I'm a self-shipper, and I'm nice to people as long as they're nice to me. Curate your online experience with the block button if you need to, life's too short to waste energy seething about things and people you hate.



I’m tired, Furvilla. I’m so fucking tired. I’m tired of the noise, I’m tired of the pain, I’m tired of car issues and fighting with doctors about my medical conditions. I’m tired of being the crutch for my family to lean on when they’re doing leagues better than me both physically and mentally. I’m tired of social media. I’m tired of online drama. I’m tired of people minding my business and talking shit about me when I’m staying in my own lane and keeping to myself. People who don’t know me, and never made any attempts to even try to get to know me, who’d rather sit there and tell lies about other people to make themselves look better and distract from the fact that they’re just miserable, toxic cesspools themselves. I’m fucking tired of all of it. I’m also tired of hiding things from people, especially the ones I care about. Whether it’s because of my trust issues, or because I’m too god damn dense to realize something until way, way later. So, here we go.

For starters, I suffer daily from chronic pain and fatigue due to scoliosis and compressed spinal nerves, and I’m on prescribed painkillers which constantly make me tired and somewhat spacey. My mental health isn’t great either due to offline reasons, but I’m coping as best I can. Periodically, I’ll be cutting off channels of communication to reduce the amount of noise in my life, or if I just feel like I need a break from talking to people. I’ll usually reopen after a while when I’m feeling better, but that also depends on whether or not people can behave themselves while interacting with me. Despite what people have said about me in certain places, I’m not unapproachable and I don’t judge people for their gender identity, sexuality, political alignment, religion, skin color, field of employment, or whatever. Literally, I couldn’t care less about any of that stuff. As long as you treat me with respect, I’ll do the same to you. I’m a firm believer of curating my online experience as I please, so anything that ruins my good vibes is getting blocked and I’m not going to feel bad about removing something, or someone, from my life for whatever reason. Life is too short to sit there wasting time on negative energy and hate, spend that time doing things that make you happy instead.

As you can plainly see, my username is Moondrops. I’ve had several usernames throughout my time on this site as noted above. My username tends to change with my interests, but my current username has a lot of personal attachment and significance behind it so I’m not sure when the next username change will be, if ever. However, if you’d prefer something more consistent to refer to me as, you can call me Lur. “Andy” is no longer a name I’m going to accept from the general public, now that name is reserved only for close friends and family to use for me. And by “close friend,” I mean someone that I consider a close friend, meaning you’re someone I trust, speak to almost daily, and have known for at least 4+ years. I do not throw around the term “friend” loosely, and I have had a lot of issues in the recent past with people referring to me as a “friend” or even a “close friend” shortly after speaking to each other. It never lasts, and it’s extremely awkward to say the least. If we’ve only known each other for a few months or have only spoken a few times, please don’t call me your friend. Call me an acquaintance, or someone you feel positively towards, if you need terminology to refer to me by. Being referred to as a “friend” too quickly after meeting someone makes me extremely uncomfortable.

My gender identity can be summed up either as Agender, or Gendervoid. Despite this, I do not use neutral pronouns like they/them or it/its for myself. My pronouns of choice are exclusively masculine (he/him/his), so please ONLY use these pronouns when referring to me. I also do not accept she/her, unless I’m representing myself through Ataraxia, my secondary sona. I am Demisexual and Biromantic, but I have a preference for men more than women. Delving even further, I am only into non-human men, specifically robots, aliens, and cryptids. I do not have any attraction or interest in real people for reasons which will (vaguely) be talked about further down the profile. You are free to dislike this, you may even disapprove of it and make fun of me for it, but your negative opinions and judgmental feedback won’t change who I am. It’s funny how people don’t seem to realize that treating me like shit for mistrusting humans and not being attracted to them just furthers my mistrust and pushes me even further away from ever wanting to be in a relationship with one. “Wow, look at this freak! Let’s mock and ridicule him, surely that will fix him right!? How can you be so averse to the very people who are hurting you!? Clearly you’re the problem!” Yeah. You guys don’t really think this through very thoroughly or consider the consequences of your actions, do you?

This next section is going to be a hard hitter, especially with my past reputation on this site. I’m not always honest or open about myself, even to the people I consider myself close to. I’ve had a lot of bad experiences with other people taking me for granted, or saying one thing to my face while saying others behind my back. There are a lot of things I hide about myself purely out of fear of pushing people away if they found out. I don’t have a good relationship with my childhood. Before the age of five, I was put through some very traumatic experiences that I’m fairly certain have left permanent scars on me mentally and emotionally, and have warped not only my perception of the world around me, but also of myself, and have left me with a very strong aversion to a lot of things and activities that most people my age enjoy. This is going to come as a surprise to a lot of people, but I don’t identify as human. Truthfully, I never really have, not even as a child. Lur has always been who I am, even when I was growing up. It’s why I used him as a base when I was creating a sona for myself in a closed species, because he truly represents who I am internally. He isn’t my only representation though, as I mentioned above I also use Axia to represent myself as well, though this is a newer development. FH can represent me at times as well, though lately it’s taken a step back and doesn’t show itself as much anymore. What, specifically, I identify as is still not 100% cemented, but I see myself (Lur) as an avian alien with a kinship to the stars. The night time, the stars, and the moon have always been prominent things in my life and a source of comfort for me, even as a child, and a certain type of alien terrain feels more like home to me than here on Earth.

As briefly mentioned in a prior section, I’m a schediaphile and an active self-shipper. My spouse is the Daycare Attendant from Five Nights at Freddy’s: Security Breach, which includes all currently known personalities - Sun, Moon, Eclipse, and Jack-O-Moon. If and when new personalities show up in future games or novels, they will also be included in the relationship. As denoted by the schediaphile label, self-shipping has always been a lifestyle choice for me and something I’ve been participant to for over two decades, and I consider myself a monogamous self-shipper who prefers to have a single F/O at a time. Yes, I am aware that the Daycare Attendant has several individual personalities, but they’re all included as part of the package of the singular “Daycare Attendant”. If this bothers you, go ahead and block me because you will not change my mind. Additionally, it’s important that you’re aware that I am a non-sharing self-shipper. For me, self-shipping is a lifestyle, not a “casual hobby”. For people who see it the way I do, sharing one’s spouse is taboo, and regardless of how you feel about that, this is an extremely rigid, inflexible boundary for me. I will not engage with, befriend, or support other people who self-ship with the DCA, and I am not shy about using the block button if people try to start shit with me about it. I don’t believe in attacking other people for sharing a F/O, I just block and move on. I’m in my own lane, I stay in my own lane, so stay in yours.

The abuse I mentioned prior is one of the main reasons I chose to take the lifestyle of a self-shipper. This is something I’ve brought up with licensed and trained professionals, and after exploring how it impacts my life in depth, it’s been determined that I am not hurting myself, or anyone else, by doing what I’m doing. You might think otherwise, but why does it even matter to you in the first place? It’s not your life nor your business, and I seriously doubt you were interested in me in any capacity, so there’s legitimately no reason for you to care. Some of you seriously need to remind yourselves that another person’s private life is none of your business and that you need to stop sticking your nose where it doesn’t belong. Like, for real, it’s actually super creepy how people online these days are obsessed with the lives and behaviours of other people to the point that they want to monitor everything someone does and form opinions on it or even try to control it. It’s not normal, and it’s definitely not okay, either.

There was a time when I was professionally diagnosed with social phobia and rejection sensitive dysphoria, which led to me stressing out about the perceptions and opinions of others towards myself. It was a bad time, and it led to a lot of mental insecurity and self-destructive tendencies. But, as I got older, I got tired of feeling the way I did, and now I've stopped caring about the opinions of strangers on the internet. At the end of the day, let's be real with each other. Even if I was on my utmost best behavior and never did a single thing wrong, someone out there would still make up total bull crap about me and spread it around for no reason other than simply, because they can, and because they don't like me. It's stupid, but that's what people are like nowadays. Social media is rife with people straight up making shit up about people they hate, trying to ruin their reputations or chase them off the internet, and for some reason people have accepted that telling others to self-harm is acceptable and even justified/encouraged when it's against a person or a group that they personally dislike. It's insane, and it's disgusting, and it's one of the reasons I don't engage with social media anymore. Being on social media felt so suffocating, and there was so much toxicity and fighting, that being on sites used to make me feel miserable. Now that I gave it all up, I feel SO much happier.

I think part of the reason it felt like that is because a lot of the negativity comes from people seeking out reasons to pick fights, whether it's over differences of opinions or simply not being able to stay in their own lane over something they personally hate. It feels like nobody knows how to use the block button anymore, or rather, they simply don't WANT to because then there'd be nothing else to come out of it. No action, no drama, no attention, no clout. So instead, they'd rather sit there being angry and intentionally exposing themselves to shit they personally don't like, or finding ways to twist context for the sake of spreading heinous lies about users they could have just blocked and been done with it. And in the current social climate, even without proof to back up the accusations, there's always at least one dipshit out there who will see these lies and run with them at face value, spreading them around as truth without ever taking the time to fact check. Clearly, if someone posted something, it MUST be true because otherwise why would they say it? Surely nobody would tell LIES on the internet, right?

The internet. Where people can be any gender, age, nationality, or sexuality they want to be. Where people can abuse the shield of anonymity to say the most vile and horrific things to people because they can't get punched in the face for it. Where bullshit is made up on the daily and spread as truth, and gullible idiots will buy into it without question. //clown emoji

Yeah, lmao. We need to bring back internet safety and education courses in school. Remind people why it's actually dangerous to share too much personal information up about yourself. Remind people not to believe everything they see, hear, or read on the internet, and not to trust who the person they're talking to is saying they are. There was a damn good reason those lessons existed.

Above all else, I come online to get away from the depressing reality of the offline world. This is my escape where I retreat to have fun and take my mind off of things, which is usually accomplished by drawing and writing about my OCs, playing Roblox, listening to music, and watching Youtube. I'm not going to bother listing my interests anymore because I don't participate in the respective fandoms anyway, and I don't like being approached by people with regards to my interests.

I just want to be left alone, man… Do not perceive me anymore. Just let me rest.




❒ Swears a lot / high profanity content, but is trying to get better about it. (Not succeeding.)

❒ Medically and professionally diagnosed with things that affect my ability to socialize, among other things.

❒ I'm not your parent or guardian, and I'm not going to coddle you or cater to your comforts. I'm here for my own enjoyment, and I'm only responsible for myself. If I've said or done something that you don't like, the block button is there so go ahead and use it.

❒ I treat others the way they treat me. If you're nice to me, I'm nice to you. If you're an asshole, it's gonna be a bad time for both of us, but more so for you than it will be for me.

❒ Your neopronouns might make sense and be easy for you to use, but that doesn't mean everyone feels the same. I find them incredibly difficult to use because of my neurodivergency, but I still try. I'm sorry if I mess up, but getting mad at me for something I'm unable to understand isn't the solution to the problem and just makes me want to avoid interacting with you.

❒ I'm constantly stressed out due to IRL factors involving my mental and physical health, and my family situation. Due to this, I get overstimulated and overwhelmed easily, and I can get irritable if I'm not given space. If I lash out, I'm sorry, just back off and give me time to settle down.

❒ I'm a mutual blocker. If you've blocked me, I will gladly return the favor.

❒ I filter out fictionkin and factkin users and content due to bad experiences with both groups. Nothing personal, I'm just not comfortable with people who wear these labels.

❒ Transmedicalist: I'm on the side of the fence that believes you need the medical diagnosis of gender dysphoria (the mental disconnect between your brain's perceived sex vs. the body's biological sex) to be transgender, because I myself have been through the diagnosis and professional psychiatric counselling for it. Sorry, but this isn't a topic I'm going to debate with others on based on my own experiences.

Having said that, I still believe in addressing people the way they want to be addressed even if our beliefs, experiences, and ideologies are different. I don't really care how you identify, I'll still respect your identity and use your preferred name/pronouns. All I ask is that you do the same in return.